Concrete faith

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The truck had arrived. The concrete pour was on. Three carpenters and a builders labourer downed tools and grabbed a wheelbarrow. I was the builder’s labourer.

After twenty minutes you pay by the minute for the truck to wait. The pace was frantic. Barrows lined up. One by one they are filled. I took off down the driveway will a full load. Wet concrete is heavy and unstable.

Around the side of the house we were renovating and extending, through the mud to the back where we were laying the foundations.

I was poised for the last challenge. Down a slippery plank and under the house to drop my load.

Just as I was about to take the plunge I heard the booming voice of the foreman: “Watch out. We don’t have a good labourer here!”

I made it down the plank. Emptied the barrow and headed back up around the house to pick up my next load. Choking back the emotions. I felt totally beaten.

There I was, working three days a week as a builder’s labourer. Trying to survive financially while while we planted our second church and I wasn’t even a good builder’s labourer.

The plant wasn’t coming together like I’d hoped. We had a couple of financial crises every week. We had two young children with one on the way. The strain was showing in our marriage. I was barely holding it together.

Worst of all, I’m right in the centre of God’s will and purpose. The trap is set and I’m in it.

By the time I made it back up to the truck I had determined in my heart there was no going back. I would stay the course. I would surrender my life and future to God and trust him with the outcome.

This was to be one of half a dozen opportunities over eighteen months to come to this same place of surrender. I thought once would be enough. God had other plans.

5 Comments

  1. Posted 30 January, 2007 at 1:31 AM | Permalink

    The picture makes all the difference. I wouldn’t have kept reading without it.
    Thanks for investing the extra work!

  2. Posted 31 January, 2007 at 6:44 AM | Permalink

    Hi Steve this is really timely for me. I have just started a new role. I am not really sure what it is yet. But part of it has meant working as a builders labourer. Interesting I don’t really feel like a good labourer myself either. Yet here I am placed in the middle of a strange environment and feeling very much incompetent, inadequate and not really sure of the future.

    Why does God do this to us? This is my question. I could be quite comfortable as a pastor somewhere. I know this job very well yet here I am throwing myself into something new again where it is unfamiliar and my level of competency is very low. But there is a bigger picture out there that I need to see as well the trouble is that while it is being painted it is difficult to see just how it will turn out.

  3. Posted 1 February, 2007 at 10:38 AM | Permalink

    I am REALLY enjoying your blog Steve. This post is raw! Keep flying the flag.

  4. Posted 4 February, 2007 at 12:19 PM | Permalink

    Chris

    Why does God do this to us? Good question. The best answer I can give to to suggest you read Larry Crabb’s Soul Talk.

    http://www.amazon.com/o/ASIN/159145347X/002-9356180-2602438?SubscriptionId=02ZH6J1W0649DTNS6002

    Short answer from Larry: Our passion for God must be awakened till it becomes the controlling center of our life.

    Everything else is secondary.

    Like your blog!

    http://www.chrisgribble.com

    steve

  5. Posted 4 February, 2007 at 12:21 PM | Permalink

    Chet, Chris, Wayne

    thanks. I need the encouragement at the moment.

    steve

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